I hate being sick. I did not wake up utnil 1:30 PM, this afternoon. It was like having a bad hangover. My sister bought Star Trek this week, so we were having a lot of fun watching it. I must remember to pick GQ tomorrow. Report Card Grades came in today, I didn't do so bad except for three C's, but the rest were A's.

Whoo hoo! I got into SIUC. That means I have a backup plan to all the other colleges that I'm applying for. At least now I don't have to worry about getting into college, because I was accepted into one already, but its not my dream school, which I am still working on the application. Bleh I hate writing all these essays while I'm sick. I'm coughing and my nose is all conjested. I can't taste anything and it's to breathe. This is not fun. I can't breath and I have to write papers for college applications that are due December 1st. EEK I have to finish. I need to sketch some more and schedule my audition for NYU, plus I have to pick up recommendation letters from my teachers and consuler. I just want it to be summer already.

I'm kind of annoyed that my mom is trying to manipulate me into staying in Chicago, while my dad doesn't care if I get into college or not. My mom will not support me if I go to school anywhere else but Chicago. I want to move away and explore new cities.

I'm really tired of this stupid childish drama between my friends. It feel like they are always fighting over the same thing over and over again. One of these days, I'm going have to set them straight and tell them to stop acting like a bunch of spoiled brats. It is exhausting having to listen to them talk behind each others back, about something new everyday.
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Instead of writing another boring post about me bitching about college applications. I decided to switch it up a little. Instead I decided to do a post of all the fun things I get in mail from colleges and I am also making a fashion post, because nothing is better at calming me down than fashion. Speaking of which, I'm currently sketching and modifying clothing for my admissions project. I really feel like watching The Joy Luck Club again for some odd reason. I never saw it from the beginning.
( Je veux ton revenge )

I think I've got one college application completed, because this school doesn't require a personal statement or recommendation letters. All I have to do is send my transcript and my fee waiver in. That's one down and five more to go, plus scholarships. I think my biggest fear in not being able to get into college and if I do get in I hate the school or the major. Now I'm terrifed or more or less paralzed with fear. I've got to get over that because I'm in a bit of a time crunch to get all these personal statements, projects, and essays done.

Voting for Senior Notables are tomorrow and this is one of those times where I wish I was more popular, or more of a social butterfly. Shit, I should have gotten over this shyness in freshman year. At least that way I could get my picture in the yearbook more than once. That way I would at least have some pull over people, so I could get them to vote for me for something. I'm really ambivalent to the whole voting thing, so I guess I'll have someone tell me who to vote for, because I'm a bit on the eh...side. I've really got to finish the questionnaire for my consular, that way I can get my recommendation letter from her before it's too late..

I really hope I can get my French grade back up to a B, because it is an Honors class and I do get Honors credit for the C I have now, which makes it a B. But I really need to pull up that GPA to at least a 3.5. I have a quiz tomorrow, so I hope I don't do so bad on that one. Then I have an oral too, I don't even know what to write or say for that matter. This sucks when you're so used to having the same teacher teach you French, I'm so not used to a different teacher. Which I need to pick up my recommendation letter from. On an unrelated note, what's up with all these shorthand names like RPattz, ASkars, KStew, etc...? I'm going to start to get confused.

I took a leap of faith and finally joined Facebook. I've been holding back on joining for so long, because I've been burned by social networking sites like that one before, and I was annoyed at all my friends asking me to join to it, so I just did it. I'm probably not going to be on it much though.

I finally worked on and finished my video for Film Studies, so I can work on college apps and whatnot. I hate doing all these essays and crap. Ugh along with balancing my social life and school work, it's really starting to get hectic. I just want it all to slow down and I want to stop spending so much money on things I don't necessarily need. I really need to focus on school, especially keeping my grades up, working on scholarships, like this one scholarship for FIDM, where I have to come up with a prom store, and getting all my applications finished. I think it's really starting to take a toll on me physically, because I'm always getting sick these days, plus my school is a breeding ground of viral bacteria. Sociology is officially the worst class I've ever taken, it's so dull for an offshoot of a psychology class. I blame the my teacher's lack of enthusiam, and being able to inject it into class, because I don't feel like I'm learning anything, all I'm doing is answering these stupid questions. I've got to shake this class up or something or I'll cry of boredom.

I finally watched "Towelhead" otherwise known as "Nothing is Private." It was an intriguing movie on teenage sexuality, but I thought the whole thing was slightly exaggerated. There were a lot of scenes where it was really hard to watch, almost uncomfortable. Overall I thought it was an okay movie. I just kept thinking about how much I wanted to hit the little girl in the movie, because some of the choices she made were so ridiculous. I keep thinking it's been a long time since I've watched a movie, but only a week or two, I saw Jennifer's Body and before that it was The September Issue.

Man I've got to stop procrastinating, because it's starting to stress me out. I have to memorize a skit in French, and I keep forgetting stuff. I have to make an object that represents a culture, and I've got a paper to write, plus I have to ask for letters of recommendations and write essays for college apps, which are slowly coming along, but I need to get my transcripts sent. Which are going to cost me two dollars a piece, who charges for that stuff? Greedy schools do. I'm wondering if I should start my own fashion blog and put it on my resume, or become like seaofshoes or Tavi and get invited to shows and get free stuff. 

Last Friday, the pep rally was insane.  Kids started running/jay walking across the street to McDonalds, and the cops were called because they're a block away or pretty much right next to us. I was in the process of crossing the street to McDonalds to wait for my friends, when the whole thing started to explode and people were freaking out. It turns out that the kids were marching down the street because the pep rally was at the end of the day and instead of going home or doing something else, they decided to march down the street and freak people out. Kids were suspened and cars were bricked and covered with shaving cream. We're glad they didn't cancel Ocktoberfest, because we would be pissed, because it is a senior privilege. 

I love you Dean Winchester. This show never fails to make me laugh. When is Dean going to get his damn necklace back? It's always been around his neck, unlike Eric with his disappearing/reappearing necklace. I love the banter between Castiel and Dean, especially the scene in the brothel.

Tomorrow I'm supposed to be going downtown to help a couple of friends of mine pick out dresses for homecoming. I haven't decided if I want to go yet. I know it's my last year, but I'm not sure if it's going to be any fun. The gym, the dance is being held in is pretty small. I've been keeping busy these past two weeks with a crap load of homework and I finished at least one college essay. I finished my Southern Vampire novels this week after finally deciding to read them. Hopefully I won't remember any of the plot lines by the time they end up being realized on True Blood, because there is such a large difference between the show and the books. It drives me crazy. I really should have been working on French homework instead, because this year is more difficult than the last. I'm constantly wondering why I took another year, especially since I don't need it anymore to graduate. I'm starting to talk to my former friend in that class, it's not as awkward as last week, but some of the things she's said to me is pissing me off like last time, and I remember why I stopped speaking to her. The problem is I won't say anything about it, I end up bottling everything up, I feel so passive-aggressive. 

I have a project for Film Studies, I can either make a comic book, a poster, a film/music video, or write a review of a 1940s movie. I can't decide what to do because I am leaning towards a music video, but it's hard for me to even stick with one idea, because I have a crap load floating around in my head right now. I don't think most of them will ever be realized. At least I downloaded some new music this week, after a couple of months being stuck in a music dry spell.

Yesterday was my quickstart. I can't believe I'm going to start school in a week, but the quickstart just made it quite clear that I'm going back to school in a week. I'm really nervous about the whole situation. I have a new French teacher after two years of having the same one, which is quite terrifying, I think I'm so used to my old one that I can't really deal with a new teacher. Great, the first week is going to be slightly hectic, because I have retake the ACT on Saturday. I'm really not too happy about that, at least there's True Blood the day after.

Which reminds me, why do I have to wait two stinking weeks for it? I'm too emotionally invested to have to wait two weeks. I guess I'll have somebody to talk to it about the day after, which is my stinking traffic. How can I focus on driving, when I'm thinking about True Blood? Maybe that is a better thing, because I'll be able to relax a little bit more. Speaking of which, I think I need new fandom icons, because I've haven't used fandom icons for a long time and I'm starting to get tired of my icons.

The joys of senior year have been clouded by my intense stress over college, scholarships, applications, and a general frenzy looming. You can't coast through senior year until you've gotten into school. I've been trying to work on my applications for the past summer, but I'm afraid that I haven't really gotten that far with them. I'm breaking out a lot more because of this crazy amount of stress. It's not helpful that my parents, mostly my mom yells at me everytime, we talk about college and me moving away. I'm starting to get really frustrated and a really afraid that I can't live by myself on my own away from my parents. My mom doesn't want to support me anymore if I leave Chicago. I'm fucking terrified that I can't do it on my own. I got to put myself on a shopping ban, because everytime I buy something, I get yelled at and there's no point, if I can't enjoy shopping.

Going back to school always pisses me off, but I got to get over it, because I am a senior. This is my last stinking year, so I got to suck it up. My quickstart is next Monday, after True Blood. How am I supposed to concentrate on school, when True Blood was the night before. Back to school shopping even frustrates me, I need to start making my own clothes, because some of the crap that is being made sucks. It's terrible. Unless I start my own fashion blog and get free clothes from designers. I did manage to get Nylon on Saturday with Anna Paquin on the cover. The article didn't have many spoilers, or if there were they were minute.

Anyways, I'm starting to get really annoyed at these goddamn cliffhanger endings on True Blood. It's driving me nuts. I know they do this on purpose to keep viewers tuned in every week, but I'm thinking I should have waited until the season ended. I might have to start reading the books because I can read faster than wait a week for the next episode, but I probably won't. I'm doing this to Mad Men, because I don't want to follow week after week. I'm going back to school. I want to get these storylines over with, but knowing the writers, they'll cliff hang into another season. If this goes on for 6 years, I'll need a well-paying job to be able to afford HBO and cable or satellite. I don't even remember how I watched SATC for 6 years. I think True Blood should do what Greek does, because Greek only has 10 episodes a season and they manage to crank out two seasons a year. They have one in fall and spring. Then again that would require all the actors to clear their schedules and work on this show for most of the year.
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While I am impatiently waiting for tonight's episodes of True Blood and Mad Men. I figured I might as well write a post. I should probably finish season 2 of Mad Men, before I watch the Season 3 premiere though. I was too busy catching up with True Blood Season 2, I watched 8 episodes in about a week's time. I should have been working on college applications. I can't even watch them until, Monday because I have no cable or satellite. I kind of psyched myself out during my traffic, so I screwed up the traffic, and now I have take another one in September. I really don't want to go, but I need this waiver. Anyways I wanted to write a review for Cruel Intentions, so I should get on with that.

I think I first watched Cruel Intentions back in 2000, when I was too young to understand what the hell was going on anyways, but I always liked the movie, even if it did take until 2009 to realize how great this movie is. I liked it so much that I went home and watched it again. I watched in California at my Grandpa's house and the movie brought up so much nostalgia. I loved the actors, particularly Ryan Phillipe and Sarah Michelle Geller. This movie is the only reason why I used to love Ryan Phillipe. Sarah Michelle Geller as a brunette is kind of fun, but her character was so manipulative and evil, I couldn't help but love her. She was great in the movie. The score and the music were amazing. I think the score in particular fit the mood of so many of the scenes. One song that sticks out to me the most is Colorblind by The Counting Crows, I remember loving that song from the first time I watched it.

( This sure doesn't taste like an iced tea. It's from Long Island. )